that's what's up.

Either God knows my heart or He reads my tumblr. hahaha. Pending a background check, calling references, and a drug screening, I will begin working for Eastside Pathology on November 18. Too stubborn to listen to my brother and apply for government assistance (though I was fully aware he was right in every way and it actually hurt me not to apply), I have been getting by since graduation by selling junk and using what little I had saved up from working at UW. My basic necessities have been met because I still live at home, but it’s uncertain how my parents can go on meeting those needs with my dad pretty much forced into retirement due to illness. Who knows? My dad might pull an MJ and come out of retirement… and win an NBA championship; but if that can’t happen, now I can contribute, start paying off student loans, pay off my other debts, and maybe get some new tires because I’m running around with slicks right now.

I’m really praying I get this job - that my references say the most amazing things about me… I’m not too worried about my background check and drug screening. I’m not really into crime or drugs. haha

seeking employment

searching for a job is ridiculous. 4 months removed from graduation, i’ve applied to 75+ jobs - clinical research, medical technology, janitorial, retail, shipping/receiving, and food service. I’ve gotten 5 call-backs, all of which have resulted in interviews - some even two interviews in one day… really good interviews… and no job offers. 1/13 just to get a call back. i feel so discouraged. and at the same time, with all the stuff my family’s going through, i feel like i have nothing to contribute. i seriously just sit at the computer all day looking for local jobs. i haven’t applied to absolutely everything, but pretty close to it.

the latest interview was entry-level medtech job… total dream job for me. i’d be using skills i learned to get my degree, great location, people, company, everything. i’m still holding out hope but previous experience tells me my phone isn’t gonna ring anytime soon.

i’ve pretty much just been keeping to myself too because this is just so frustrating and depressing and i’m not trying to bring anybody else down with my melancholy demeanor. i mean, yeah i’m proud; i’m the only person to have earned a college diploma in my immediate family, but i’m the only one without a job. what the heck is this $20,000 piece of paper for?

I held my breath when I saw my dad for the first time post-op. He’s doing okay, but it looks rough. He said nobody has to stay, but that instead, we should go to St. Pius and pray. By the sound of his voice, I could tell he felt like he might not make it. I’m praying all right, but I’m not going anywhere.

My watch…

rotates all the way around my wrist now. Yeah. It feels good. Upper back hurts but it’s a pillow issue. No idea where my real pillows are. Ever since I switched to that small travel pillow, the back pain I was waking up to has started going away. Probably need some deadlifts and good mornings/back extensions to get it right again.

September 2, 2011

Eating rice. Haha I’ve been pretty good with minimal carbs. I haven’t done pushups or squats for a week. I owe about a million right now. Haha. Even though I ate rice today, I don’t feel the need to eat a lot of it. I could, but I don’t like the way my body feels after I load up on carbs on a cheat day. I have no desire to feel all nasty. Haha I just like the way the word nasty looks on paper.

August 19, 2011

I haven’t been great with blogging, but I can assure you I’ve eaten nothing but yogurt, eggs, salad, hot dogs, fried chicken, and a little beef steak. I haven’t done pushups and squats from today and yesterday. I owe 37 right now.

August 16, 2011

Pre-workout food: yogurt (another staple of my diet)

Morning workout: played 21, ran lines, 16 pushups, 16 squats

Breakfast: eggs

August 15, 2011

Morning squats and pushups done.

Breakfast: yogurt

Lunch: fried and baked chicken wings, butter chicken, pulled bbq beef, steamed vegetables

Dinner: fried chicken (somehow, it’s become a staple of my diet. i prefer baked though)

I didn’t get a real workout in, but I at least walked around UW a lot. I also got in a lot of studying.

August 14, 2011

On that see-food diet. That included: bbq from last night, kare kare, two deluxe (at Dick’s, deluxe is plural of deluxe), and yogurt